Can I cry on your shoulder? Please?

I try not to let on when things bother me, god knows the world has enough stress without me adding mine too it...But I'm stressed, and sad, angry and worried.....and you know what lack of Sex sure is Not helping me in any way shape or form.

 Last night I was up late ( insomnia ) I was fine for a while, then all a sudden I just started crying, even though I try never to think about the things getting me down I guess my subconsious just had enough. I don't cry often, or easily..actualy just a few times in adult memory. Tango my faithful pup does not like it when I cry, actualy he started getting upset, then went back upstairs and got my cell phone and brought it down to me...well chewed on it a bit first, and texted a few people...lol which I am soooo sorry about! (I know I sleep with me phone so people can get a hold of me any time of the night, but I hate bothering other people.)
There just has to be that point where you say enough is enough. Anyways, I guess he thought I needed someone to talk to :)

I'm far better at listening then talking, and I don't always have the words to describe how I feel.

Topsy Turvy

Lately I feel as if my whole life has been turned upside down, I'm not sure if I'm coming or going. I feel this need to go, get out of here, quickly, every ounce of my body is screaming this...So I decided it is time to start living my life for me, to start changing, to stop putting everyone else first, and just work on things that make me happy.
I've started by deleating all the old posts on my blog, it's time to start a new one. This is the first step in a new direction, hang on tight it's gonna be a wild ride.

I read this today on someones yahoo 360* blog, and i totaly fell in love with it, so I just wanted to post it here.

Don't take her for granted She has a hard time Don't misunderstand her Or play with her mind Treat her so gently It will pay you in time You've got to know She's the sensitive kind Tell her you love her Each and every night You will discover She will treat you right If you believe I know you will find There ain't nothing like The sensitive kind She gets so lonely Waiting for you You are the only Thing to help her through Don't take her for granted She has a hard time You've got to know She's the sensitive kind

Sensitive Kind - J.J. Cale

I wrote a song....A country type song while making dinner...

I've gone down to the bottom to search out my soul.
to the bottom of my heart, I couldn't take it anymore.
I've been lost for days, drifting in the memories of old
can't find my way, can't find my way back home.
And once upon a dream I loved you so.
So far away from where we are today.
I've emptied out, I've searched it all.
But I just cant seem to find my way back home.
I've been down to the bottom to search out my soul.
to the bottom of my heart, I couldn't take it anymore.
My love for you has been long gone, and this well is dried.
my heart longs for tomorrow, as I search the county side.
I've been lost for days drifting in the memories of old.
Can't find my way, oh I can't find my way back home.

Greatest American Hero
Can you remember the greatest feeling you've ever had...Floating, falling, flying...Drifting gently through a day dream...An adrenaline rush to beat all. Achieving a new goal or feeling that ultimate satisfaction, that one moment of bliss...That second in time where you heart skips a beat and you feel like singing......
Look at what’s happened to me,I can’t believe it myself.Suddenly I’m up on top of the world,It should’ve been somebody else.
Believe it or not, I’m walking on air.I never thought I could feel so free.Flying away on a wing and a prayer.Who could it be?Believe it or not it’s just me.
It’s like a light of a new day,It came from out of the blue.Breaking me out of the spell I was in,Making all of my wishes come true.
Believe it or not, I’m walking on air.I never thought I could feel so free.Flying away on a wing and a prayer.Who could it be? Believe it or not it’s just me.

DREAM

Dark as night, bound by these chains...I scream to you release me, release me from this pain.
Wrapped in sorrow, drawn in like a moth, sucked inside you, your macabre world.
Cold and hot drenched in remorse, moaning and thriving within your shadowy arms.
release me release me release me from this dream, let the light penetrate my mind, let me be free.